At all the rats in the sewers, if it helps you to reflect on how much of a dick you are.
I pretended to be elsewhere.
Really I was here, or rather nearby.
I stared into your main and vied for your attention.
I didn’t sleep until? Well, never.
I relied upon the moment and the stupidity of ‘good advice.’
I floated back down to my senses and made a cup of tea.
I’ve paused for 29 minutes.
Lingering around, thinking.
Our universe advises that I should trust you.
You were sent here to teach me patience.
At my door in December.
I opened up and coughed on em’
Tell me what’s up?
Tell me what you want from me?
Tell me how happy you are?
Tell me why you smile every day?
Tell me who labelled you amazing?
Tell me if I’m ever wrong?
I love you.
Always here for you.
Cider, Cider, Cider, Cider. CIDER-UPPERCUT
My purpose is to…
Your purpose is worthless.
Don’t expect me to be the one to say yes! Yes, I accept below-par experiences.
Don’t expect me to be the idiot that ignores your shit. I see it, I smell it, fuck off – I stepped in it.
I’m not the one. I’m not the one.
Don’t expect me to express love in a way that resembles what you deserve.
Don’t expect me to accept the bullshit you play on. Play with and share out.
I’m not the one. I’m not the one.
Don’t expect me to trade my time for your time when your time is never my time.
Don’t expect me to remain silent when your feathers are in full plumage.
I’ll never water myself down…my feathers enjoy the signs of the air. Take me straight or fuck out of here.
My title was Unique, long before the big bang. Or the theory behind the minds of those who still argue about facts.
Remember that. Remember that. Remember that.
Be there for you.
Snakes Invade my Space
They wear suits.
They appear friendly.
They stab your soul and act as you’ve harmed them.
Their lies are accepted by those who look akin to their reflection.
They wear burgundy, they dress professionally.
They spread lies – faster than coronavirus.
They breed and multiply, they outlive the good ones. It’s like they never fade away and die.
Snakes slither around my feet, acting weak and in need like their life is deep and unseen by Unique.
They don’t strike out and bite into my Achilles muscle. They slither back and report I stomped on their heads. The slither by again, slower than the first time, they smile as they’ve successfully poisoned the ignorant heartbeats, within my space.
A group of snakes can hiss the same shit, they can do that daily. This does not equal the truth being reiterated by one.
A pit of snakes slid through my path, they tricked the masses and smiled at me during the process. Upon reflection, I now realise your life was never more than an insignificant birth.
I run through the dark forests and no fear resides within.
The birds chant over my head.
Crow flies silently above the treetops.
I remove myself from your pool of toxicity. I breathe.
I owe nothing to no one.
I pay myself in time and appreciation.
The tone of your voice no longer lingers around my thoughts. Forgotten.
I don’t quite recall the shade of your iris.
My mind rests easily upon my mind. I carry it with pride.
The ants march underfoot and look up to catch a glimpse of my deep brown eyes and the glimmers of Crows sapphire blue stares.
I stop at a cliff edge and bellow out all the pain I’ve been holding onto: ‘please don’t deny me!’
Crow lands on my right shoulder, claws deepen into my muscle. Blood flows down my right breast and between my armpit.
Tears bleed out and the scenic image around me is now tinted with red.
I turn my head right and kiss Crow on his head. Bloody tears drip onto his ebony shaded feathers.
I look behind at the forest, then up to the sky.
‘It hit different!’ I cry.
And like that with no apprehension, I leap out and we both plummet through the misty confusion you cursed me with. I hear you crying. It warms my heart, speed picks up and I look at Crow – he’s smiling.
A rock scraps my left ankle. My bloody tears jump and float above us
Into the skies, deep into our universe and sprinkle across our sun
The evidence we never aligned.
With grey slapping my face I whisper ‘please don’t deny me.’
The fog clears and presents a deep blue pool of nothingness. Crow and I plunge into the icy waters.
The liquid clears every speck of blood away from us. My vision is clear, I see black!
I see black.
I see only black.
Then I turn to my right and see two glows from Crow’s sapphire blue eyes. He looks up and they beam out the most intense blue light.
We drift up, breaking through the surface of the water
Crow bellows out ‘and then Unique was free, and then Unique was free and then Unique was free!’
The icy water forces us into the sky and through our universe – we both hit the centre of the sun.
Fell upon my knees and froze my movements, forever.