We live in a world where destruction takes priority over life.
Herbal tea and meditation.
Kisses and cuddles.
Home cooked plant based dinner for two.
Weekend breaks with you.
Our universe advises that I should trust you.
You were sent here to teach me patience.
The pulses zapping around.
Even the pain was fierce I remained silent.
I wholeheartedly trust in our universe.
Tell me what’s up?
Tell me what you want from me?
Tell me how happy you are?
Tell me why you smile every day?
Tell me who labelled you amazing?
Tell me if I’m ever wrong?
I love you.
Pull and suck.
Preparation is key before we fuck.
Bought you to my doorstep, where the wind wept.
Unique loves you.
Welcome to The Butterfly Series!
A collection of creative pieces about transformation and mental growth. With this collection, I share with my readers moments of change that has occurred both within and around my life.
Some pieces derive directly from my heart, whereas other pieces flow out of my mind at a pace I have no control over.
I’m truly thankful for everyone that has assisted with the rise of my inner phoenix. I agree, 2020 has been a challenging year for all the inhabitants of this earth. However, life is about growing, understanding and expressing your soul.
This collection is for all the stars that glow in the night sky.
Thank you for reading!
Earlier this evening I had written a blog post that consisted of 1500 words. However, upon reflection, I’ve decided not to post it. This is out of respect for the memory of someone I once knew and held in high regard.
Some of you may know that in 2019 I went through a profound set of changes in my life. A few of which I have touched on lightly through conversations behind the protection of…
During the months of emotional pain that was inflicted on my existence, I felt as though I could not confide in anyone. It has taken months of work to acknowledge what happened, accept that it has happened and to move forward. That this person is no longer in my life and I admit, I have grieved the absence of our connection. However, in some ways, I’ve learned to identify other elements in my life that today I embrace.
If you or anyone you know are going through a difficult time and aren’t sure what to do. Please speak with someone or get in touch with an organisation that specialises in Mental Health.
If you or someone else you know:
- Has a change in appetite
- Feeling low.
- Thinking about death.
- Withdrawing from family & friends.
- Change in sleeping habits.
- Lack of interest in personal hygiene.
Please know that support is out there for you.
- Mental Health.org
- Rethink Mental Illness
There is no shame in struggling with your mental health. All of us at one point go through something that impacts on our mental health.
The best thing I can advise is to seek help and know that support is out there for you.
Know that you matter and every heartbeat counts.
The bright hue of Scarlett.
The warm scent of new.
The heavyweight of sorrow.
The belief of love renewed.
The reality of intention and deception.
The thoughts so dark and grey.
The scope of fame and fortune, with clickbait, added each day.
The whores attitude of your attitude towards my existence.
The ego you blow up and in my space, the knife stabbed through to mitigate it.
The blue blocks of builds hiding the levels of coerced promotions.
The white lines of the show you glamorise as actualisation.
The whisky you take straight on a Tuesday afternoon.
The roar from my heart at the sign of a new moon.
The rust from your mindset as it’s set in its ways.
Love me, love me not I don’t care anymore, anyway.
In bed (unwell) contemplating my future:
- Updating my x3 diaries.
- Mapping out the next 3 months.
- Selecting my reads for the month.
- Book shopping online.
- Planning a study on titles – or rather a creative piece.
Tired of people calling to moan about the negatives in life. I’m not interested. I just want to rest.
‘Where’s your kids at? I have mine. Time is ticking.’ – known imbecile
Gone are the days that people are proud of you for all you’ve accomplished, starting from the pits of society. Don’t seek them as they’ve been eradicated.
My credentials are visible to those that wish to see them. I’m not a foghorn or a viral social media post. I’m Unique.
I’ve spent a lot of time focused on my interests. I’m assigning large quantities of time to my creative pursuit. Makes no difference in the eyes of a known individual who recently mocked my womb.
A womb that is ageing with each passing year, ridiculed for not yet producing offspring. *Don’t take a moment to see if a woman is medically okay!
Air your deep thoughts during a discussion about facilities in a household that is not shared. They felt it was fair to desecrate on my womb credentials – ‘time is ticking.’
There are some people throughout my life that I’ve stepped back from and stopped talking to. The cut-off. The known individual has been added to this category of ignorance.
No woman should be made to feel inadequate based on the thoughts of an ignorant form of existing life.
No woman should be made to feel useless because their womb has yet to bare seeds.
No woman’s education should be discarded because known individuals believe women belong in the kitchen and caring for children.
No woman should have to experience the levels of disrespect that I recently went through.
To the known individual,
Your comments shot through my existence ten-fold. I’ll never forgive your ignorance.
The fact you feel your docile mind has any room in the world to comment on any womb is beyond me.
Your current partner has a womb.
Your daughter has a womb.
Will you impose the same taunts onto them?
I wonder if your role was reversed and you experience the nightmares many women face. If you’ll still make scornful comments.
I’ll never forgive your Incomprehension on mindfulness and basic respect.
Always remember your comments and do express them to your partner and your daughter if ever they face similar womb trials and tribulations.
I believe in equality and fairness.
Don’t stop being sexist on account of my womb.
I had £1 in my pocket. Left pocket, coat pocket.
I held it tight.
‘Spare some change please love?’
But what of this love? Who’s love? I don’t love you. You don’t know me. I’m walking by, right past you.
I reply, ‘sorry, I don’t have any spare change.’
What of spare change? Who has spare money? How would one define spare?
‘God bless you.’
What of this God? Why does he not bless you with the spare change you seek? Why do you ask for the change from strangers, when God is known as ‘all-mighty’ and women are seen as weak?
My coin is now hot.
My pocket is toasty and warm.
My mind wonders if God will return and save you, from your likelihood of doom.
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I didn’t know about you prior to you being you and noticing me.
I hadn’t heard of you before you spoke directly to me.
I had never seen you before.
I didn’t know you were an undercover dickhead.
I hadn’t foreseen your consistent dramas and nonsensical way of life, prior to that day.
I didn’t know you’re just a glorified mouthpiece.
I can’t imagine you becoming anything more than you are currently – that is nothing.
Be there for you.