Tag: words

Vulnerable

Two nights ago, I dreamt about the meaning of the word vulnerable.

I realised I had misunderstood the meaning of the word. I was out by pages.

I stood up and apologised in the only way I knew best – through writing.

I have spent another twenty-four hours ruminating over the word’s meaning and actions.

I mean, I’m not the most intelligent form of existence.

You feel vulnerable with me.

What is happening is a fine blend of elements that take time to create.

Wax seal over the opening.

I Never Said Goodbye – 23.06.2022

One day common sense caught up with my age and reminded me that you are insular.

I frowned at my reflection in a car window; the car was parked illegally on a double yellow line.

How has it taken me so long?

You’re a vampire that drains my energy store, similar to a lack of iron and B12.

I’m a woman that cares deeply.

Only you actively choose to exploit my good nature and drain me whilst making out that you’re the one suffering.

My Therapist advised me to remove myself from toxicity! He said, ‘Unique, why do you keep allowing that vampire to encourage your anxiety? Increase your OCD behaviour? Or even have them in your space?’

I’m nice, and you know it.

I’m nice, and you take advantage of that fact often.

I’m nice because I always see the good in you. *Disclaimer, the good is part of the delusion that fogs my mind when you’re around.

Recently, I bumped into my peace! It wrapped me up in an abundance of love and sprinkled respect on my name.

The fragments of a heart that you crushed reunited and began to beat.

Unique

Unique

Unique

Leave.

You will forever be remembered as? Nothing.

You trigger my OCD to scales I’ve never processed before.

You trigger my anxiety beyond this realm of emotion.

You trigger tsunamis of stress; often, I’m drowning – I call your name, and you can’t hear me dying. You’re too busy living up to your name.

What is it again? Abhorrent  Narcissist.

I logged out, switched off and walked away.

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Until June 2022

Wow! What a year it has been, the good, the bad, the dangerous? Cast aside to my think bin.

I set a few goals, a bit of this, and some of that; nothing has made me happier than writing. Though, after another 12 months of trying to play catch-up and not having the time to complete all I know I can. After 12 months of consideration, I have decided to take a break from blogging – it won’t be forever, just until June 2022.

I want to thank every one of you for supporting and inspiring my life. 2021 has been quite the challenge, and I officially recognise, I need to take a step back from this and focus intensely on my main goal. Of course, I will continue to read other blogs and show my love and support for my fellow Creative Writers – But for now, Crow and I shall fly through the skies in the hopes to return to you in two thousand and twenty-two.

With love,

Dame Unique

Growing Pains

I understand, and I hear you; I love you. I don’t pray!

I don’t believe in random activities, though I procrastinate throughout the day.

I want you. I want me, I want us, I want life.

I need time, more time.

The bolts of life thunder around my mind, creating worlds between myself and I.

The inevitable will happen, and we will fall in love during the day. I’ll kiss you as you fall asleep and quietly walk away.

You Only Die Once

We talk about life and how it is better to do something now rather than leave it until later because of YOLO.

But the truth is, you only die once!

You can love and become destroyed all within the same relationship.

A lack of consistency with earnings can push you into a lane riddled with broken glass, and you’ll stop walking because the end result is not worth the pain, especially as there is no guarantee of a better ending than where you currently stand.

Tears are temporary and dangerously futile – I cried over heartbreak, and my heart crumbled even more.

Who am I to ask for more when life suggests I need less until I fade away to nothingness.

Why are you waiting for something to happen for you to progress? Or rather, why don’t you trust that you are more than capable of committing to your goals and surpassing them.

Or maybe you are vanishing into the grey mist of confusion, and before you know it, you’re 84 and taking a leap into life.