I love being wrapped up in my duvet, warm and cosy and listening to lofi-beats and conjuring up a few creative pieces. I know I will drift to sleep again, but for now, I appreciate the silence.
Category: Life VS Reality
Forward – 05.10.2025
‘I’m here to protect you!’ – Future
Truth Hurts – 3.10.2025
I’m realising that I’ve been in an emotionally abusive relationship.
He’s abused me for almost seven years. I understand now why my predecessors left and why my successors will leave.
Regret is circulating through my body, wishing I had listened to myself more. For years, I have felt this deep repulsion at many actions he has taken.
Yet, like many women out there, I’ve ignored them.
Purification – 29.09.2025

She – 25.09.2025 (End)
‘I’ll miss you now, but you’ll miss me the rest of your life.’ – Rosie
Today, she gave herself permission to let go.
Though she felt completely dead inside, she knew that her weakness was the source of all her pain.
Today, she allowed her heart to open up and become the target. Her mind regurgitated memories of the lies he sang to her in the form of a unique connection and emotional bond.
Today, she created an opportunity for him to reassure her mind. Instead, he doubled down on his deceitful behaviour, and she sensed a hint of pleasure in his goodbye. It was akin to being bitten by a venomous snake and having the power to cure the heart. Choosing to smile in the face of someone who unequivocally valued you, prioritised you, and though you promised you’ll never hurt her.
Your smile beams, glancing at the antidote and her life fading in…three, two, one.
Admittedly, the tears she created today were nothing in comparison to before. Her gift forced her to see the truth even before she was ready.
Her heart told her to stay and continued to pour into a non-existent soul.
May she treat herself with kindness and stop wishing she never existed in such a heartless world. May her mind stop mocking her emotional intelligence and laughing at her inability to connect with a good man. May her memories stop belittling her luck, with constant reminders of all the red flags he stitched right before her.
Today, she gave herself permission to let go.
She cried for forty-four minutes, switched the track to 16 Carriages by Beyoncé, wiped tears from her face, blew her nose, then sat back in bed and asked our universe for peace of mind.
September 25, 2025 (5)
‘I’ll miss you now, but you’ll miss me the rest of your life.’ – Rosie
Today, she gave herself permission to let go.
Though she felt completely dead inside, she knew that her weakness was the source of all her pain.
Today, she allowed her heart to open up and become the target. Her mind regurgitated memories of the lies he sang to her in the form of a unique connection and emotional bond.
Today, she created an opportunity for him to reassure her mind. Instead, he doubled down on his deceitful behaviour, and she sensed a hint of pleasure in his goodbye. It was akin to being bitten by a venomous snake and having the power to cure the heart. Choosing to smile in the face of someone who unequivocally valued you, prioritised you, and though you promised you’ll never hurt her.
Your smile beams, glancing at the antidote and her life fading in…three, two, one.
Admittedly, the tears she created today were nothing in comparison to before. Her gift forced her to see the truth even before she was ready.
Her heart told her to stay and continued to pour into a non-existent soul.
May she treat herself with kindness and stop wishing she never existed in such a heartless world. May her mind stop mocking her emotional intelligence and laughing at her inability to connect with a good man. May her memories stop belittling her luck, with constant reminders of all the red flags he stitched right before her.
September 25, 2025 (4)
‘I’ll miss you now, but you’ll miss me the rest of your life.’ – Rosie
Today, she gave herself permission to let go.
Though she felt completely dead inside, she knew that her weakness was the source of all her pain.
Today, she allowed her heart to open up and become the target. Her mind regurgitated memories of the lies he sang to her in the form of a unique connection and emotional bond.
Today, she created an opportunity for him to reassure her mind. Instead, he doubled down on his deceitful behaviour, and she sensed a hint of pleasure in his goodbye. It was akin to being bitten by a venomous snake and having the power to cure the heart. Choosing to smile in the face of someone who unequivocally valued you, prioritised you, and though you promised you’ll never hurt her.
Your smile beams, glancing at the antidote and her life fading in…three, two, one.
September 25, 2025 (3)
‘I’ll miss you now, but you’ll miss me the rest of your life.’ – Rosie
Today, she gave herself permission to let go.
Though she felt completely dead inside, she knew that her weakness was the source of all her pain.
Today, she allowed her heart to open up and become the target. Her mind regurgitated memories of the lies he sang to her in the form of a unique connection and emotional bond.
September 25, 2025 (2)
Today, she gave herself permission to let go.
Though she felt completely dead inside, she knew that her weakness was the source of all her pain.
September 25, 2025
Today, she gave herself permission to let go.
A Simple Thought: 22 August, 2025
I’m highly fascinated with ‘human behaviour’ in particular, the dregs of society who appear to have a hierarchy complex; they believe that their position in life is above education and never below the sewage level that they rest upon, in comfort and self-disgust.
March 19, 2025
‘Advice is for the weak and I’m in profit.
At the top of this tree, I sit, and no one will clock it. Day by day, I grow and swell; I understand where you stand and how deceit bloats common minds.
I’m not defined by my words, but inflation steals my time.’
DR. UNIQUE
Climate Change
Laying in state for far too long. I’ve had my eyes closed and my lips sealed with tincture.
My voice.
For a long time, the temperature rose and fell too quickly, too violently. I discovered the blueprint post-destruction. Though, I admit I had seen glimmers of this a while ago and ignored it.
Graduation was a spiteful entry. Absorption.
I became dehydrated and baked under the glaze of envy.
Fireworks ripped the restraints and broke up the mental chains of dystopia. For the first time in the history of our timeline, I chose myself.
Today, at this very moment, I sway my hands through clear blue water. I’m comforted by the sun.
My voice is heard, and honey truly heals.
To my cheese, my spicy cheese, thank you, forever and ever! I would never have woken up had you not found me.
An accurate flow, if ever I encountered one.
Rigor and Wrath
The nights turned dark for a long period.
I was stoic for the most part and I loved the absence of nonsense. It all makes sense, well today more than yesterday.
Thank you for keeping me awake.
Liar – 20.09.2024

The way your lips move when you speak has always fascinated me.
Let’s be real; no one is interested in you.
The way your fingers twitch when you tweet, and your voice wails out.
Let’s be real; no one cares about you.
The way you lie and you lie, and you gaslight and lie and reverse over a swan you ran over earlier. Then you fall asleep. Wake up and swear to your God that you’re innocent, and you hate how witnesses are reporting your crimes.
You cry out like a bitch to the feds about how your traits are on the line here, and you don’t think it’s fair that the news is printing eyewitness testimony.
After all, you know you’re innocent, right?
Let’s be accurate; you think what you think, and even the truth has no space in your life. So your head has you spinning, allegedly.
You make up shit and assume that the editor is spending time pouring gold on. She knows nothing about you, to write about you. However, past and present witnesses have the mic and the timeline of deceit, and most importantly, they can attest under oath that you regularly attack swans.
Crow chants out at 1800; your body bears witness to all your violent crimes.
Your lips move and echo your lies, with tears and pain on the hour. You snarl and snigger at your brilliant ways of manipulation. You play victim so well, yet you hold the knife perfectly, not even bothered about cross-contamination; you raise, and you stab. You stab, and you twist. You twist and assign blame, stating, ‘Your response made me do this.’
Then you hide your weapons, you cry wolf and explain to the authorities that you were attacked! Your character was defamed, and your traits were contaminated.
Crow now perches on my left shoulder, and he plucks a prawn from my portion of King Prawn egg fried rice with the soya-ginger sauce in a small dipping bowl.
We are silent in this space.
One of the surviving swans makes a statement that coincides with witness testimony.
You scream out, ‘I’m innocent’, as the detective finds evidence to prove you’re a liar.
Liar.
Pockets – 19.09.2024
Every time you have the time and space to improve, you do nothing.
I hint as I speak, I highlight with red rings of fire. Yet you sit back and act like a bitch.
Stomp your feet and throw yourself onto a bed of floral, fresh memory foam, and you peek before your soft landing.
You pluck out yet another appeasement and sprinkle it around me, hoping it remains as effective as the last dose.
You forget that all things have an expiry date, even plastic degrades, eventually.
I could draw a map daily, provide a flashlight and, of course, sustenance, and guide you myself, but you’d get lost again. I’d forever state how lucky you were to end up exactly where you started.
It’s a miracle.
Bless my soul for believing in you.
These days, I don’t even get my hiking boots on. I sit in a cosy chair, sip hot chocolate and catch up with EastEnders. There simply isn’t time to volunteer anymore.
Direction

Right now, I feel good. Thank you.
Tomorrow, I’ll feel better.
In an hour, I’ll feel restful and at peace with last weekend’s peril and demise.
I’m thankful for being taught valuable lessons and for confirmation that my spirit is centred and my moral compass is aligned with my purpose.
Actions – 19.08.2024

For every wrong move you make with me, you will suffer by three.
Take the Stage – 17.08.2024

Tonight
My head is tired.
My thoughts are on high-speed.
Abandonment is painful.
Everyone goes, eventually.
Trust is costly, and time is a trait of age.
I’m frozen with the memory that my writing was admonished for expressing my feelings. I’m cold with the thoughts that I thought you would never behave in this way.
Even knowing my trauma, you opened the curtains and re-enacted one of the worst things anyone has ever done in my life.
Today – 17.08.2024
He saw I was down, injured by shards of misinterpretation. No! Misrepresentation! The information was ambiguous and clearly indicated a meeting.
I bled out, and he asked, ‘What are you up to?’
Then left me there for 24hrs.
Thankfully, I managed to get help. Miraculously, I survived the night. Regrettably, I sent a text. Notably, it went unanswered. Lazily, one word was sent in response. Secretly, I pondered over my next move.
I’m awake now. I reckon I’ll be okay. My new scars cover old scars, hiding my love for the unknown and perhaps the inconsiderate.
Tears are there, and a great escape is pending, but I push back. Well, step back. This is too much.
Now he’s gone.

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