For treating me like an over chewed piece of gum that’s lost all flavour and purpose.
For faking a friendship.
For walking away.
I stayed right here.
I wrapped myself up.
I healed my self.
I flew by your space one morning.
The early glow from our sun, kissed my wings as I fluttered into greatness.
If you’ve not seen my WhatsApp story updates.
If you can’t see my Instagram.
If you can’t hear my tweets.
If you never receive a card this Christmas.
If your emails file straight to junk.
If your shared media has deleted and expired 30 days after deletion.
If your letters remain unopened or worse, unopened and returned.
If you try to call and can’t ever get through.
We’ll never be.
I’ll never seek.
I’ll never speak.
I’ll never hear.
We’ll never share a friendship again.
I’ll always be here.
I’ll always answer.
I’ll always listen.
I’ll always wait.
I’ll always offer.
I’ll always wonder.
Remember those long conversations with friends. Conversations that make you laugh, cry and almost pass out through lack of air.
Remember when you dream about doing something and those same friends say, ‘that’s impossible! You should just stick to working and work your way up in the company.’
Remember those friends that vanished when you needed their support? When you fell down, into a ditch that was filled with thorns of steel. They looked over the edge and turned their backs – Who wants to be that friend?
When I needed you all the most you abandoned me. I called out and I heard a rodent of some kind, gnawing away at the bones you left in your wake.
When it rains glitter on me, I see your eyes beam and shine in my direction. You smile and hit me up with a few plagiarised, overshared text messages. Then comes the invitation to lunch.
‘No thank you.’
Friends – Real friends, are people that stay around. Even though a load shit is dumped on top of me. Whilst I try to climb out of this ditch.
Even now, the only friend – the real friend I have, is Me, Myself & I.