Almost daily I miss our bond.
I love you and I’m sorry we never remained friends.
I know in my heart we were bought together to educate specific areas of my life.
I know in my soul that were it not for your presence, I would never have levelled up!
You may never reach out following our last conversation. However, if you did? Know I’ll be happy to hear from you.
I may never contact you in this world. However, take comfort in the fact that I want to.
I’m in a place where my thoughts are valued and my points are understood. I’ve found a space for my creativity to thrive and for my heart to expand with joy.
I have a bounty of gratitude I reflect upon daily.
Our initial bond gave birth to a whole new universe and I’ll forever remain dedicated to the gift. Your role in this has been noted and tears have fallen.
You’ve done well.
I’m somewhat happy for you. Honest.
The left side of my neck hurts.
You achieved something new to your life. Brilliant.
That’s not my story.
Do not wish the same for my life.
Our universe has chosen. I’m at peace with where I’m going.
DNA blend and match.
Fuelled growth with nourishment.
Blessings to the world from our universe.
Your little brown eyes are everything.
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Fuck the process.
Mix it up with pink lemonade and let it spray on the sugar feins.
I find that you can be anything you want to be.
Speak it. Yes!
I saw a rainbow appear after a flash flood. As quick as it came, it was photographed and stored around the world. #Rainbow #Colour #Smile
Do you like to read?
I made pancakes this morning for breakfast.
I called Mother and she answered on the 3rd ring.
I reviewed the 268 blocked numbers on my WhatsApp and I unblocked 1.
Checked my phone for nothing in particular.
SWOT analysis bitch, I’m branding on those cookies!
I listened to Love Drought by Beyonce over 34 times today. I thought about you first and then him after. I considered unblocking you, but you’re a spineless cunt and while I don’t hate you – I don’t need you drowning my existence with your fake perception of life.
I tell myself daily, ‘Unique, remember who you are.’
I wish you did not exist.
I wish we had never kissed.
I wish you didn’t fucking lie.
I wish simple things had never died.
I wish you weren’t a fucking cunt.
I wish your life weren’t a front.
I wish you didn’t lie to me.
I trust no one now and no more I will see.
Bullshit in my view.
Long live the King!
The beast rides on through the darkest nights.
The eggs are compromised.
The shadows fill the hours of daylight.
Apparently, we all have it.
Years ago, I found mine.
Earlier today, I gave birth to my legacy.
I’m sending this email as I’ve noticed that you haven’t replied to any of my messages.
Why haven’t you responded?
Are you upset with me?
Have I done something to upset you?
I really hope you do reply! I’ve been wondering if you would like to meet up for lunch? Or maybe we could go for cocktails this weekend. But if you prefer lunch, then I do too.
Can’t wait to hear back from you.
Unique sits on a train heading up north to Edinburgh. She is sipping on Innocent orange juice while reading My Sister the Serial Killer.
Her phone is on flight mode.
Unique is listening to Beethoven, unbothered by life outside her mind.
[05:36, 06/01/2020] Unique: Still
Time stands still.
In my mind.
I’ve woken up daily for five months, hoping that everything between us would heal.
I’ve checked my phone every night, hoping you’ll be in touch.
(You used to touch my mind all the time)
Today I woke up and accepted our friendship died last year.
I know you said you wanted to remain friends, and I know I wasn’t sure about that. (Felt weird)
I know our friendship no longer exists, like the woolly mammoth it walked out one day to forage for food and never returned.
And I accept that.
I know you wanted more than anything to keep our connection.
It was so pure, real, needed!
Our bonsai tree requires care and attention. The leaves have long since faded and the roots refuse to absorb the nutrients.
I remember watching a leaf drop, only one.
The next day they had all fallen.
I remember when we were in touch with each other, every day/night.
Then every few days.
Then at least once a week.
Today I woke up and accepted our friendship faded back in 2019.
The moment that thought was let through the acceptance trial, I cried profusely.
You saved me.
I’ll always feel honoured you found me when you did.
As I write this on the 6th of January 2020, my heart hurts. My tears are fast and constant, that blinking still leaves my vision blurry.
You’ll remain a continuous thought in my mind. I’ll always wonder how you’re doing and I’ll hope that ‘you’re okay.’
It took me months to erase our conversation on WhatsApp. Remember our first exchange and then compare it to our last – I apologise.
I take peace in knowing I was there for you when you needed me.
I relish the comfort in the belief ‘Que Sera!’
The future is not mine to see.
With you, I wanted to see everything.
But whatever will be, will be.
Our universe connected us in ways we never knew existed.
I appreciate the sentiment when you initiate contact and send a message via WhatsApp.
Seeing a video specifically for our conversation is alien.
Hearing a voice note from you, where you state my name is alien.
Although, those lil messages I found sweet.
I still miss our bond from day one.
I’ll never block your number, the conversation will always be open by phone. (I acknowledge ours is borderline extinction)
Our universe advised me not to become so cold.
I know you’ll need me soon.
The ice steals from fear, and my anxiety was losing you.
I woke up this morning and accepted you left back in 2019
I woke up, and my heartfelt heavy with magic.
I have no regrets.
There are people on this earth that completely cut off.
I know that’s not us.
I’m saying wherever you are, wherever I go, you will always have space here.
I’m putting this into the universe because I trust our complexities.
I trust my heart.
I trust my choices.
I believe in my purpose.
I have strength.
I have energy.
I have a healthy mind.
I have scope.
I have insight.
I have unique abilities.
I have my heartbeat.
Until we reconnect
Farewell my forever sweet avocado 🥑