The Inside of Love
I pressed call and called you and you answered.
We spoke and I laughed, you cried and we understood one another.
At that point, I believed we clicked.
Only, it wasn’t too long before you faded and the pages caught fire. I wanted these words to be permanent. Life does not kiss hearts with pink.
I’ll perch on your chest and feel your heartbeats through my feet.
I’ll flutter around your mind like a humming-bird about to dip into a flower head.
I’ll dive deep down into the sea, to scoop up your waves of love.
I’ll fly beyond the perimeter of the Earth, to sprinkle my admiration directly above your layers.
Next lifetime, I’ll recognise you.
Next lifetime, I’ll hear you.
Next lifetime, I’ll see you.
Next lifetime, I’ll press my heart beside yours. We’ll beat as one.
Next lifetime, Phoenix will rise and burn out all the memories we formed in our lifetime.
Next lifetime, Crow will tear out from the heart of the Phoenix.
Next lifetime, Crow will paint every universe black.
Next lifetime, you’ll see nothing but I promise you, you’ll feel my love.
It keeps pulling up over the years and tries its best to drag me down.
If I smile in your presence I’m truly delighted.
The processes have me seduced by the flow. The many flows, within veins I’ve never thought to go.
Exploration of cavities can lead me to race through the darkness in my mind.
Toxins, disguised as love, always catch me by surprise.
I fear the dark side, yet my arms remain open.
I cringe at the nightmares that invade my day-dreams.
I shudder away from all signs of love, as I sense evil within loves true meaning.
It keeps comin’ thru’ like an old flame burning bridges. Like a snake in unicorn skin, only I see the ridges!
The diagram you place before me isn’t accurate, to say the least.
Deep in your eyes, I see jealously and bewilderment. I see love and comfort entangled around an iron blade. I see the lies you are eager to share, delivered alongside the thorny steams of white roses.
I kiss you then close my eyes.
To the moon.
It gifted me a star.
I held the star.
It embedded itself into my soul,
Until the day I left this earth and abandoned your heart for the unknown.
I kissed November and it bore me a star.
I birthed a star and wished upon it.
It cried during the day, as I was blinded by the sun.
I kissed you through November and won!
I love you.
But I love the world around us even more.
I love our sky.
I love our sea.
I love the air we breathe.
I love the swans paddling by on a warm summers day.
I love the peace of mind when drama and pain fade away.
I love your eyes.
I love your mind.
I love your brain in its entirety.
I love your soul.
I love your heart.
Every heartbeat counts, no authority.
I love the way your smile beams through to my vision.
I love your warmth, including extra love only emissions.
I love your kisses.
I love your touch.
I love our love when love is never too much.
I’ve never met a man like you before.
You challenge me.
I’m gushing through my white lace panties.
Currently, I’m dating an amazing man.
We have great sex and commitment.
Shout out to our future darling.
Everything is rosy.
I said ‘no’ softly.
I opened and welcomed you in.
You were comfortable.
I felt joy.
Years upon years it has taken to build the wall.
In moments you melted it all away.
Your seed zaps around my womb like a bolt of lightning.
I feel your son stretching every few hours. He will be tall like his father, a mighty warrior grows inside of me.
I’ll give you life.
You are my life.
I love you ZEUS
If I die during childbirth, know that every second with you – was worth US
Lightning rain down with bolts of passion. Unique is unique and that’s my last expression.
Your centre of excellence.
You never know what people are going through behind the scenes.
Sometimes your thoughts take you down blind roads. You feel warm but you’re scared.
You try reaching out to people you once deemed as trustworthy but they’re focused on their lives – you no longer meet their requirements.
Confidence is broken.
They’ve moved on.
You’re abandoned, you feel your heart beating and you want it to stop!
You want to lay there in bed and understand what you did wrong?
You feel alone.
Your fragile heart is broken and your mind full.
Ignored because you’re faulty.
Like drugs, you consume more and fuck up your perspective.
You make comparisons and you conduct a study.
You don’t comprehend the results, because everything points toward your favour.
Only you see red.
You imagine your absence to be peaceful.
Can you show me your heart and I’ll show you mine?
I want us to compare love, especially at this time.
Can you show me your mind and I’ll teach you about life?
I want us to compare thoughts, even more so this time.
Can you show me your memories and I’ll tell you my story?
I want us to compare history, although history is history.