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Hey Sweetie,
See me waving rapidly and grinning like Bean. I’m elated to see you and enjoy spending time with you.
Pardon? No, I would never be so passive aggressive. That status update had nothing to do with you.
Gee, I’m a Creative Writer!
‘Hello I’m Bean!’
I disagree with your thoughts. When I see you, I’m going to park my car in the space you wanted.
No! Never out of malice. Simply because I’m Bean.
The delusion that you truly believe I can be turned down, off, MUTE.
That my voice won’t visit your moments of quiet tracing your steps back to my den.
Oh! How awful do my lips look?
You distort the red.
I’m burrowed deeply into you.
The delusion that you feel I can be placed on a bed of ice. Hoping that you’ll feel me FADE. Frozen in August 2019 where you left us.
My red lips, blue with the frost setting in. Your mind showing my absence.
Only, you hear my whispers.
‘Trust our universe’
‘You are amazing’
‘I believe in you.’
Yes, you heard that didn’t you!
Oh! How delusional that you felt for a moment in time that I was never Unique. I healed you…
You dismissed my powers when you felt the warmth of being cured.
At night you lay awake, wondering if you got things right? Hearing my sweet whispers and hoping (religiously) you’ll hear my voice once again.
Only I don’t exist.
I received a silent text message thanking me for my contribution.
It never beeped, but I bleeped!
Fuck you! Obscenities monitored and wiped out.
Gee, declarations were live – attributing delusion to the success.
I received a silent text message, it read:
.
Although 2019 will be over in a few hours, I’m not running away from it. I accept it has been a turbulent year for me and with turbulence comes lessons learnt. I’m taking this knowledge into 2020 and building upon it.
Resolutions?
I don’t make resolutions, as goals I set, I start them the day I set them. No point in waiting for New Year’s Eve, life is never guaranteed.
Thank you all for following me on my creative journey, I shall try to post more frequently and read more. I truly appreciate your continuous support.
Thank you 2019
Unique
xX
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Bah Humbug!
December is the month we indulge and be indulged, overeating roasted flesh and vegetables that accompany the dish.
We like to spend!
We like to spend what we have.
We like to spend what we don’t have.
TREAT YOURSELF!
Scream the lights hung up inside windows of our local ‘Highstreet.’ We hate being told what to do, but we are obedient when those lights tell us what to do.
Bah Humbug!
To the one use only Christmas jumpers – Yes! I know you felt you would get your wear out of it. But you say this every year, and every year you buy a new jumper. Donating £2 no £3 to the Christmas Jumper day charitable event.
Which as some say, ‘every little helps.’
How much did you spend on gifts this year?
Ooh! How much have you spent on food?
Don’t worry, you donated a few cans of chickpeas back in March to your local food bank. That’s alright, someone will benefit from your out of date donation. What did you say you’re having for Christmas dinner again? Ah! Let’s recap.
Starters
Main
Pudding
A general idea of what some families have on Christmas day
It’s sad. We do so little to help those less fortunate – I’m not knocking your mini donations, a £1 here or a £1 there. ‘Every little helps.’ How much did you say Christmas dinner costs?
Christmas Day, one measly day out of the entire year. I use the term measly because it’s a day where the many are for themselves, and the few go on to suffer…
Bah Humbug!
Indoors overeating and eating, feeling full and still eating. Some people in receipt of gifts and tweeting their disgust, ‘I didn’t ask for this! I wanted that!’
Tis the season to be jolly.
You deserve all your heart desires and more. Let’s not think about the homeless this season. You received £600 worth of gifts. But that’s not enough! You expected more, you’re worth more.
John received a meal and a pair of socks, which was a gift from a charity. On Boxing Day the 26th of December, most of the nation will be battling their way through the sales. Indulging even more.
There exists a plethora of reasons why I don’t like Christmas, and overindulgence is my primary one. It’s like we are a world of split-personalities. On the one hand, we infrequently feel charitable and donate from time to time. What is £1 compared to £600? Well it’s £1 more than £0
I wish the month of December weren’t so commercialised. That we helped one another willingly and showed gratitude genuinely. It’s tiresome seeing the fights recorded the day after Christmas.
Our world is being destroyed by our own destructive choices, our indulgence in consumption and our lack of care for others.
“Heal the world
Make it a better place
For you and for me
And the entire human race
There are people dying
If you care enough for the living
Make it a better place
For you and for me”
– Michael Jackson
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Like You Used To
Those dwellers that dwell in the past, beneath the rock that states, ‘I woz ere 2000.’
Why is it that many can’t see and accept when a person changes? The human can become a better person, refining their current skill set and becoming a better person.
I find it a laborious task explaining to someone that most people, ‘thinkers & doers’ alike are groups of people who progress in life.
What am I babbling on about?
Those conversations I’m brought into whereby one party can’t seem to accept, that another does not operate like that anymore. For instance, I gave up eating meat and consuming dairy a few months ago, till this very day I have people say, ‘Why don’t you eat meat like you used to?’
I also never used to date single fathers; however, a recent encounter changed my mind. But I still get those questions!
Why, oh, why? Don’t you do that like you used to?
Are we trying to stunt the growth of a person, to fit our own perceptions that we build within our mind – to keep our own egos satisfied that another person isn’t doing better? (Gee, a mouthful I know.)
The tedious, familiar feeling I have when I must reply. (Not replying comes across as rude)
Why do some of us have this urge to live stagnant lives? Extract the word ‘live’ and replace it with repeat. Why do some of us have this urge to repeat stagnant lives?
We are on Earth, within a multiverse of universes and yet, SOME of US choose to REPEAT stagnant lives. Is this a rant? I would say a mini one.
Maybe I’m not transparent enough? Nah!
I believe some people have become too lazy to think before they plough into a conversation, like a person wearing glass slippers on ice. Or a chef preparing vegan food using meat-based cooking utensils. Or saying you care about climate change while discarding your waste into the ocean and buying a bucket of chicken on the way home.
Like you used to!
Will this stop, not unless they think before they speak. But then who am I to make such a statement? I’m just trying to do my bit in a world where people like to repeat stagnant lives.
Well, rant over!
I hope you see how important it is to vent. Bottling up your annoyance, won’t make it age like fine wine. It will fester and become putrid, like comments from trolls beneath a curvy person posting a beautiful image.
Fester away and attract rats with the smell and stale vibes, of a conversation past due – and poorly placed. Boil away like the multiplication of a Gremlin when wet.
Express yourself, don’t repress yourself.
If you need to rant, then rant. Don’t hold onto it and backpack with it to your tomorrow.
Our lives could end like the male Mayfly – all in a day’s action.
How do I feel?
Awesome. Ready to start a new day.
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No Ceilings in My Life
I was placed here in this universe for a reason.
People have tried on many occasions to dissuade me many times, both close friends and family.
There have even been times where I have believed, they are right, and I can’t do exactly what I want. Looking back there were a few occasions where I gave up on pursuing my passion.
It has taken me years to accept that I can remove those ceilings from my pathway. Which is up! Like a shooting star I shall rise and soar, and the world will see and feel me.
YEARS!
I’ve always felt this inherent desire about where my life will go. I’ve known my purpose in life since I was a young child. My journey is unique to me – I can’t tell you how to get to where you ultimately want to be. All I can say is that you should focus on your own pathway and listen to your heart.
What is working for me may only work for one other person. Or may not work at all.
I’m a firm believer that we all have a purpose in life – I felt it a few times during my childhood. It’s only now in my adult life that I’ve accepted it – I’m unique.
You’re Unique, there is no one else quite like you!
This event is happening now, you must trust your energy. Believe in our universe and take action with your dreams.
You are a creator.
You are important.
You are Unique.
The barriers around you are all a manifestation of negative energy.
Dilute that until it fades.
One thing I do more now is I step-up to the fear.
I feared telling someone how I felt about them.
I feared leaving.
I feared applying to study at University.
I feared tasting tofu (I know that’s random.)
Our universe is plentiful.
You must believe in yourself – break down your walls and build your own table.
Remember: People will do everything and more to ruin you. (Consciously and subconsciously.)
Success does not depend on your existence, it depends on your actions – believe in yourself.
Don’t just live, learn how to self-manifest.
You are the key, the major key, the ONLY key to your most sacred dreams.
How many times have you stated, ‘I’m going to start tomorrow,’ and then pushed back?
What are your habits?
Ultimately, they will form the basis of your manifestation.
Don’t run away from your gift! Embrace it. It loves you!
We are not just here to get by and work.
We are here to live and flourish within this life.
We were created to bless the world with our gifts.
You don’t need to have a huge following or likes. You don’t require approval from anyone else.
Embrace yourself.
Don’t be numbed by employment – work on your passion each day.
The world wants to share your gift and draw upon the energy and inspiration.
#ManifestNow
#YouHaveAPurpose
#YouAreUnique
#WordpressWriter
Dedicated to the right thing
Poem read by Dame Unique
#ASMR
#Poetry
Before
I fell in love with a man that ticked all the boxes.
My list went on forever, about a meter in length, Time New Roman, font size 10.
He lived alone, knew how to drive and earned a decent wage. Our first date was near the beach, and it all began with a wave – Hey Unique.
I had high expectations, which he met and surpassed. He was health-conscious, earth-conscious and his positivity was unmatched.
Did we ever fall in love? No. But I was sure then he was my happily ever after.
After
I fell in love with a man that externally was a catch for all.
My list was crippled by my internal anxiety. I told myself I was never good enough for him.
I made sure I was there.
He drove, cycled, owned his own apartment, cooked, earned a wealthy wage and was polite.
He made me believe I was never good enough, by the silence he often bestowed. He used to pick me up so high, love me and drop me like a bag of plastic tossed into the sea.
As I’m sinking, I see his menacing glare, but before I’m fully submerged, he would pick me up and embrace me. He would hold me so tightly, felt like he would never let go.
My expectations bounced from one end to the other – this man loves me? No. We just fucked like passionate lovers.
Who Do You Love, Are You Sure?
‘Who do you love, are you sure?’ – LL Cool J
We love one another, we sometimes love ourselves.
We’ve loved many others, before and after tales.
Emotions are draining and powerful at the same time, emotions are unpredictable, and even then, they’re all beautiful.
I was sure about before, I was sure about after, now in my future, I look back, and I’m past that.
I loved him then, and there ever after. That was at the time, I knew nothing past that.
Currently
I became friends with a fellow creative, we both adore the art of writing.
Infrequently exploring the universe together, amidst our surrounding circles of blended passion and lightening.
Our bond is beautiful, and I must tell you so, I know I love this man and I know, he’ll never know.
‘I wish we met years ago!’
I wish the same things too.
Writing these words right now, and I only want to correspond with you. ‘I do.’
I’m as sure as my heart beats, I know my emotion so. I’ll always be here for you and my words you should know.
To build a connection, created from our starlight, our universe is ours, and forever we shall illuminate.
Who do I love? You, my love.
Are you sure? Unconditionally.
Who do I love? Blue, I love blue.
Are you sure? Like the depths of the ocean.
Who do I love? You, I love you.
Are you sure? Yes.
Who Do You Love, Are You sure?
I know how to count, so I’m counting.
Addition, subtraction no reaction.
I know how to read so I’m reading, the messages you don’t send so I’m guessing.
I know how to think so I’m assuming, no contact in forms is just ruining.
In comparison to us at the beginning, we’re nothing right now you’re just sinning
Our beginning was flourish with no blots. Now I’m connecting all dots, you’ve just stopped!
Ruining connections, you keep stepping, over my thoughts expressing passive aggression.
Online many times just seeking, I see the signs many times I’ve been peeping.
It’s been a while, so you dial because you creeping.
Bitch claims to be stalled, so you call, shit is seeping.
I know how to connect, so I’ve disconnected. Those callbacks you speak of keep requesting.
My investment can’t invest, so I’m missing. Staring out my rearview is a blessing.
Like Amy I’m Gone Girl, I’m transparent. Everything on the peripheral is apparent.
I wondered if I’m at fault, I’m impatient. But your actions I speak of, I’m just saying. You could do better, but you’re playing.
Emotional intelligence is a blessing, I know this emotion, I’ve faded.
@Dame_Unique
‘Now that the citizens had been freed of their plague, they regretted having promised so much money, and, using all kinds of excuses, they refused to pay him. Finally, he went away, bitter and angry.’ (Grimm)
This is an accurate reflection of today’s society, people like to take, take, take and not even display a tit-bit of GRATITUDE.
Do you come across this often? People will contact you when they’re in need. ‘You know, I never like to ask you for anything, and I will pay you back right away.’ They never say, ‘How are you doing Unique?’ Well not unless they ‘need’ something from me.
And when you ask for them to pay back, or you tell them you need help, they vanish like rats being led by the Pied Piper! The thing is, I would instead they were straight up from the jump-off and told me, ‘I can’t pay you back for 6 months. Etc.’ Instead I get the characters from Grimms short story, playing real roles, asking real favours and regretting to pay up afterwards.
‘Life is NOT a rehearsal!’
Remember those long conversations with friends. Conversations that make you laugh, cry and almost pass out through lack of air.
Remember when you dream about doing something and those same friends say, ‘that’s impossible! You should just stick to working and work your way up in the company.’
Remember those friends that vanished when you needed their support? When you fell down, into a ditch that was filled with thorns of steel. They looked over the edge and turned their backs – Who wants to be that friend?
I
When I needed you all the most you abandoned me. I called out and I heard a rodent of some kind, gnawing away at the bones you left in your wake.
Sparkle
When it rains glitter on me, I see your eyes beam and shine in my direction. You smile and hit me up with a few plagiarised, overshared text messages. Then comes the invitation to lunch.
‘No thank you.’
Friends – Real friends, are people that stay around. Even though a load shit is dumped on top of me. Whilst I try to climb out of this ditch.
Even now, the only friend – the real friend I have, is Me, Myself & I.
I just came across a nice line in this book.
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